Going through my archives. :)

I was reading entries from my very first blog and after that, I realized that my way of writing never changed through these years. I am still a crappy writer. Darn.

But anyways, I copied and pasted some of the entries I made which seemed pretty decent yet insignificant. What the heck, we are all frustrated writers, aren't we?

July 26th, 2007
The Truth

I swept the ashes off my skirt
And sat so prim and decent.
You were watching me pride pride and joy,
Saying, "What a lovely lady you’ve become."
You bragged me off to all your friends
And you tell them how beautiful I am.
And while you weren’t looking. . .
I swept the ashes off my skirt,
Then sat so prim and decent.

February 4th, 2007
the need for a passion
when we have a passion for certain things, we feel the joy of having to find the importance of those things. then, we sacrifice for them. for instance, religion. what wonders it does to a person’s life! having to observe a friend’s sudden change because of religion had made me wonder[even until now actually] what a disaster i have been [i wanted to say bad but then it's just too strong a word] in my life.i figured out i need a change. that maybe, instead of just going to church just to be seen [which, i do sometimes..shame on me!] i need to have a passion for it. but then, seeing other people do the same made me think that hey, if they made it through life without Him, why can’t I? but then again, why the heck would i follow those people when i can be someone better and more outstanding not by academics but with faith.i wouldn’t say that I would have an overnight transformation but i would probably do it gradually and then i’ll learn every little details it takes in order to really believe and have faith in Him.then maybe, i could say that He is one passion i am willing to make sacrifices.


**the last one right there doesn't seem to make any sense anymore. but i just wanna give thanks to klein, emarrah, and elysse for commenting to that one and telling me that they would pray for me. i mean, i still believe in God, i still have faith in Him, i just don't go to church anymore. :)

I still have a lot of entries in my old blog. It's just that, I don't want to read them anymore, they seem so empty and irrelevant now.

I still suck at this blogging thing.

*kay*

Realization

It's not how I imagined it to be
I didn't think it through
It's not my intentions but can't you see
My insensitivity just brings out the worst of me.
The more I talk, the more I weep
Nothing good comes out from what I speak
Could it be that my lack of tact
Couldn't stop me from showing you the painful fact
Of how life works.

Sorry wouldn't bring it all back
But then I don't intend to say that
Knowing you could also be
As insensitive as me.
Could it be karma?
No, not really.
Because we both know
That some things have to go.
And this is one of them.

Just another random survey to kill some time. :)

1. You're a girl, right?

► i think so. :) that's what my birth certificate said.
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2. Have you kissed any one on your top friends list?

► top friends. . .? yeah. lol.

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(i was wonderin' where number 3 went. ;p)
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4. Do you enjoy drama?

► if it's on other people, yeah.

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5. Are you a girly girl?.

► no, not really. but i could pull it off. ;D
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6. Who was the last person you hugged?

► ty. :)
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7. Small or large purses?

► haha. ;P small. trust me, i can fit everything in it.
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8. Are you short?

► i think i'm tall. is five four tall?
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9. Do you like someone?

► yeah. *wink wink*
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10. What would you do if someone slapped ur face?

► return the favor. lol.
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11. Do you care if your socks are dirty?

► yes, i do care.
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12. Do you think you’re conceited?

► haha, yeah. im a girl, i need to boost my self esteem, you know?
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13. Do you dress up on Halloween?

► i probably will this year.
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14. Are you double jointed?

► no, whatever that means. lol.
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15. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?

► sa benches sa SU amphitheatre.
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16. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?

► LOL. me?
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17. Is there any type of rumor going around about you?

► idk. and if there was, then i don't really care.
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18. Do you call anybody by their last name?

► some.
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19. How many guys will read this?

► idk.
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[x] I do wear make up.

[x] I have cried at a movie theater.

[ ] I can't put mascara on without opening my mouth.

[x] I get jealous. (imma girl, it's jealousy, do the math.)

[x] I think Johnny Depp is sexy.

[x] I love to laugh.

[x] I like metal.

[ ] I like rap.

[x] I like techno.

[ ] I like country. (hell no.)

[x] I carry a purse.

[ ] I’d be lost without my computer.

[x] I own a Spice Girls CD.

[x] I own a Britney Spears CD.

[x] I own a boy band CD. (sad but true)

[x] I get bored watching football.

[ ] I’ve never been called a spoiled brat.

[x] Guys are VERY confusing.

[x] I’ve been called a bad influence.

[x] My friends are the best.

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1. What is your sexiest coloured bra?

► i'd say black. (wtf?)
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2. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?

► dark haired ones. ;P
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3. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?

► no. ;)
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4. Do you have a bestfriend?

► yeah. and i'm missing her. :(
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5. Have you ever had your heart broken?

► yeah. but i got over it.
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6. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?

► no. nadaaaaah!
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7. Do you like your life?

► yeah. but then again, i don't really have much of a choice.
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8. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?

► no. but i stole hers once. (and i was really sorry for it. wait, i didn't steal him. he cheated on her.)
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9. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?

► yeah.
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10. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?

► i have more girl friends. ;)
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11. How long have you had friendster?

► since i was a junior in high school, like 4 years ago.
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12. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?

► yeah.
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13. What are your biggest fears?

► imax theatres! lol. ;) and heights.
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14. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?

► yeah.
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15. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?

► no. i can distract myself easily.
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16. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?

► uh huh.
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17. Do you ever wish you were famous?

► no. wait -- i did.
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18. Are you currently missing someone?

► yeah. . .
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Oh brother.

I have this urge to just kick myself. I just have to. I mean, this is like my fifth blog (or maybe even sixth, but who effin' cares?) and I can see it now, one whole web page of nothing but crap. No, seriously.

Okay, so I wrote before in my previous blog that my blogging schedule would only be at 3 in the morning. But apparently, that didn't work out so well for me. So now I have to figured out something else.

See? Even my first post is so irrelevant. Don't you just love making up random shit? :) I know I do.